About the Author

My name is Cristina Gherghel. 

I write as an act of exact articulation—a disciplined endeavor to document, dissect, and expand upon realities that transcend conventional paradigms. My work is not born from a need for validation or external recognition—especially given my condition of asensoria—but from an imperative to construct language and structure for what remains unspoken and unseen.

As the author of FROM NARCISSISM TO HISTRIONICS: Neurodivergent Insights in Cluster B & The Comorbid Spectrum of Dark Personality Disorders and other investigations, my focus lies in elucidating the complex intersections of neurodivergence, ontological abuse, and the socio-cultural frameworks imposed upon human existence. I have coined terms such as asensoria and panthropic abuse, among others, to address conceptual gaps where existing discourse falters.

These are not mere theoretical abstractions; they emerge directly from my unique neurological architecture and painstaking empirical analysis. They serve as instruments to interpret phenomena that remain marginal, misunderstood, or altogether unacknowledged by mainstream science, psychology, and philosophy.

The Reality I Document

I inhabit a neurological and existential space devoid of mechanisms foundational to what most consider human experience:

  • Global Aphantasia – The complete absence of mental imagery across all sensory modalities, including taste, touch, smell, sound, and visual representation. I discovered I had aphantasia at 40, in Exeter (UK), just as researchers were defining the term itself. I was trying to "visualize" my future as a writer — and I couldn’t. This led to the astounding revelation that others see, hear, and feel internally. To me, that is an extraterrestrial ability, a supernatural power.
  • Anauralia – I don’t have an inner voice. I don’t “hear” my thoughts.
  • Asensoria – I cannot simulate certain emotional states. I don’t feel pride, satisfaction, or many emotions considered essential to human experience.
  • Anhedonia – I don’t experience pleasure as described by others. Music, touch, or social rewards do not excite me. This is not trauma-induced. It’s structural.
  • Asexuality – I don’t experience sexual attraction. I never have.

These are not deficits. They are alternative neurological realities with distinct functional implications. They are not “treatable,” “trauma responses,” or “therapeutic goals.” However, panthropic abuse — a diffuse, insidious form of ontological violence — has profoundly shaped how these conditions crystallized in my life. My work unpacks this dynamic while refusing narratives that center survival, pain, or redemption.

What I Offer

I develop and articulate an original lexicon for invisible neurodivergence. My work illuminates its lived realities and broader cultural, medical, and political implications. I offer:

  • A critique of entrenched systems in psychology, psychiatry, medicine, and motivational discourse
  • A multidimensional analysis of human behavior, relational trauma, and systems of societal control
  • Experience-based insights into women’s health, including endometriosis and vestibulitis
  • A radical refusal to reduce complexity to jargon, cliché, or digestible diagnosis

Lived Experience of Other Invisible Conditions

What I offer is not abstract. It is embodied, researched, and survived:

  • Misophonia – Acute anxiety triggered by sounds like nail-biting, gulping, jazz, or “therapeutic” tones (handpan, binaural frequencies)
  • Multiple Phobias – Especially medical and driving phobias, both severely impairing autonomy and daily life
  • Panic Attacks – Episodes of somatic and existential terror that dominated 30 years of my life
  • Social Anxiety – Paralytic fear of social interaction
  • C-PTSD – Complex trauma rooted in prolonged abuse, chronic invalidation, and systemic neglect
  • Endometriosis & Vestibulitis – Painful, underdiagnosed gynecological conditions with profound psychological and relational consequences
  • Etc., etc., etc. – Because the list doesn’t end. And I refuse to flatten it into a sterile catalog.

Why I Write

Because when I searched for language, I found none.

I scoured psychiatry, psychology, philosophy, and metaphysics for over twenty years. Nothing mirrored my experience. No framework accounted for the contradiction of being both hyper-visible and fundamentally unseen.

Only Kafka offered partial resonance — The Metamorphosis, The Trial. Then Schrödinger’s paradox gave me a model: living as both presence and absence. Being both observed and denied.

So I write to build what didn’t exist — a conceptual and emotional system that names what has been silenced or distorted.

I write because:

  • Motivational culture retraumatized me with spiritual bypassing and false promises
  • Medicine dismissed me to psychiatry
  • Psychiatry reduced me to “hysteria,” “hypochondria,” and “impossible diagnosis”
  • Wellness narratives gaslit me with savior metaphors, surrender doctrines, and toxic positivity

I write to give form to the ineffable. My work is not a reaction to suffering. It is a deliberate construction of ontological understanding — a scaffold for those navigating complex, non-binary intersections of identity, neurodivergence, trauma, and systemic abuse.

My Work

My independently published books — available here:
https://www.amazon.com/author/cristinagherghel
— reject euphemism, simplification, and intellectual seduction. They examine:

  • Complex trauma (C-PTSD)
  • Emotional, psychological, narcissistic and panthropic abuse
  • Systems of control: politics, spirituality, psychiatry, and motivational psychology
  • Women’s bodies, hormones, reproduction, and menopause
  • Invisible neurodivergence and systemic invalidation
  • Intergenerational trauma
  • Personality and mood disorders (Cluster A, B, C; bipolarity; depression)
  • Normalized abuse and systemic deception
  • The possibility of reconstruction — without platitudes, saviors, or marketing

I also publish memoirs, novellas, short fiction, and poetry — without pretense, but with clarity and conviction.

I write for those who do not resonate with forced optimism, guided meditations, or the seductive illusions of manifestation culture. I write for those who want the truth — unmarketed, unpolished, and fully human.

Explore More

I write on around 130 blogs, in both Romanian and English.

You can explore them here:

This corpus is not for passive consumers or seekers of facile narratives. It is a detailed cartography of the human condition — intended for those prepared to confront, question, and understand.

 


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